The work of mind

When we are worried, we would like to relax for ourselves. However, we might be still worried, and we might treat this feeling for a long time as I’m doing. Now I am standing beside the window and looking out the window to relax because I’m stressful, but I cannot see any way to fix my problem. Since I graduated from the university till now, I have been rejected by every company where I applied, so at this moment I don’t have enough money to pay for a debt which I borrowed from countless people many months ago. Moreover, my parents must pay their money for my younger sister to study at high school, and my younger brother to study in the university. I am still very anxious because there are very few advertise the careers which I can do no matter where in the newspaper or website. I graduated from the university with the efficiency, but why didn’t they let me work with them, or I have no enough qualification for that particular work; I’m really serious. In addition, how I can get the money to pay for everyday life, and the countless debt. After I looked out the window, I didn’t see any way to solve this problem; there is no hope in my eyes, and I want to die. Perhaps, this is the last way for me to leave this situation now and forever.

Season in my heart

When I walk in the garden, and see many little new light green leaves on the top of the trees and bushes. It’s like the new beginning of life, and it makes me fresh and cheerful. However, it doesn’t impress me anymore whereas the season which fascinates me is the winter because it’s the representative of loneliness, peace and beautiful. I like to lie down on the mat in the garden. I look at the trees, and see many red, yellow, orange, green, and brown leaves are full the trees, it’s so colorful. Then, when the wind blows, every leaves move. Some move fast, and some move slowly. Nevertheless, some of it falls off from the trees, but it’s still float in the air as long as the wind blow. It floats highly and highly at a moment, and it fall down and down till it leis on the ground gently because there is no wind. In addition, I am sometimes depressed because I think, someday after I went to the top of my life, I must fall down and down as the leaves which drop to the ground without any wind handle it.

My impression

One thing which impressed me is the song, and I think, somebody might impress in their beautiful song, especially the first time when they heard the song, and like it immediately. For me, I have felt in love with the song which is English song when I was in high-school. My friends liked to listen to Thai and International songs; they listened to it from their MP3 player every day after lunch. There were a lot of songs in their MP3 player- Thai song, English song and Korean song. And I had to listen to those songs with them because that moment I didn’t have MP3 player. However, I didn’t like International songs because I didn’t understand it at all, and I chose Thai song to listen to. One day when I did the tasks attentively. I borrowed my friend’s MP3 to listen to the music, so I did the tasks and listen to the music simultaneously. Every time that I listened to music from my friend’s MP3 player I would skip the English or Korean songs, but that day I enjoyed doing the task, and I forgot to skip it. I didn’t know how many International songs that I listened to. When I finished the task already, I heard the melody of the song that I listened to, I felt like it is full of the sadness in this song, and the singer could transfer her sadness pass the song completely with her smooth voice. In particularly, when the chorus of the song is sung, I felt like, I and the singer have the same feeling: I am floating in the sky. Then I thought how beautiful this song is: I wanted to listen to it again and again. Oh! This is the sad song which is very beautiful song: I love it. Furthermore, this song made me want to know the name of this song, and then I saw the word “Everytime-Britney” in the screen of MP3 player. Now I still listen to this song every days. Besides, this song impresses me very much, and it is my inspiration to listen to any international songs. Eventually, I like to listen to those songs. Although I don’t understand its meaning, I still listen to it every day.

New Year's Resolution

Many people determine to do or don’t do something when it’s important event, especially New Year Day because it’s often the beginning to do their new things or don’t do their bad things. Surely, everyone has different resolution. Moreover I also have the New Year's Resolution for this year (2010). Many years ago, I didn’t like the children and baby too much, particularly when I see them because they always annoy me. For instance, when they cry, especially on the bus, their sound is so loud and annoying. When they suspect, they must always ask me a lot of silly questions, so when I answer, they ask me other questions again and again. In addition, they are often petulant and stubborn very much. However, I will change my attitude to them. This is my resolution. Because now I think, everything that they do is their natural habit or their innocence; I must be able to accept it. Certainly, when they cry, they want to be taken care from someone no matter what their parents or their sister. Nevertheless, when they ask me many questions, I think, they don’t know it at all and they just want to know. Many years ago, if I think like these, I will like them more, and I hope that I might do it well no matter when this year and go on.